yeah I think it was gonna have to be me bc I was the one who cut it off the first time. That time it wasn’t like I lost feelings or that I wasn’t attracted to him anymore—- it was bc he would take days to respond while still watching my stories. So it felt like there was a maturity gap bc I don’t play games and he clearly was. I brought it up to him bc I care about him —- he then all of a sudden could now reply right away. That was in February. So time passes, I keep seeing things that remind me of him and I started to miss his energy. This time it was like how I remembered when we first talked where he would respond right away and enthusiastically. Ended off where I offered to come to his show and he said “you don’t have to haha I’m gonna be working mostly”. Idk 🤷♀️ where it stands now but I am glad I at least tried bc I believe in the saying “is is better to speak or to die”—- the idea that would you rather die leaving things unsaid or have just said them.
Also I saw a quote that said that when you are younger you think you will have so many different loves of your life but then you get older and you realize how few and far between they are —- he’s one of those for me where I connected with him in this way I haven’t been able to with anyone else.
We have so many parts of us that align it’s crazy —- still haven’t met anyone where it lines up as much as it did with him. I think it’s safe to say that one is a to be continued…. —- a maybe some day but not rn 😖
the vulnerability in being the one to reach out first and reestablish contact i love this
yeah I think it was gonna have to be me bc I was the one who cut it off the first time. That time it wasn’t like I lost feelings or that I wasn’t attracted to him anymore—- it was bc he would take days to respond while still watching my stories. So it felt like there was a maturity gap bc I don’t play games and he clearly was. I brought it up to him bc I care about him —- he then all of a sudden could now reply right away. That was in February. So time passes, I keep seeing things that remind me of him and I started to miss his energy. This time it was like how I remembered when we first talked where he would respond right away and enthusiastically. Ended off where I offered to come to his show and he said “you don’t have to haha I’m gonna be working mostly”. Idk 🤷♀️ where it stands now but I am glad I at least tried bc I believe in the saying “is is better to speak or to die”—- the idea that would you rather die leaving things unsaid or have just said them.
Also I saw a quote that said that when you are younger you think you will have so many different loves of your life but then you get older and you realize how few and far between they are —- he’s one of those for me where I connected with him in this way I haven’t been able to with anyone else.
We have so many parts of us that align it’s crazy —- still haven’t met anyone where it lines up as much as it did with him. I think it’s safe to say that one is a to be continued…. —- a maybe some day but not rn 😖